:'(

I went for a doctor medical consultant appointment last night. Dr Sara asked me to view this website www.patient.co.uk to search for the patient leaflet about acne problems. I woke up earlier today as usual, and I visited to the website.

I cried when I read the following information on a particular article that I saw coincidently:

"About half of all smokers die from smoking-related diseases. If you are a long-term smoker, on average, your life expectancy is about 10 years less than a non-smoker. Put another way, in the UK about 8 in 10 non-smokers live past the age of 70, but only about half of long-term smokers live past 70. The younger you are when you start smoking, the more likely you are to smoke for longer and to die early from smoking."

I realized, the very first thing i was about to search for my own health problems. However, I read two articles about the issues that i most concern on which i knew since then. Feeling bad when you read the risks of health about someone you really care and love meanwhile you wanted to do something but you couldn't really help any. Maybe that is the reason why i feel really bad and sad at the moment. :'(

that is a feeling of fear

fear of losing someone in life

fear of being lonely

while my heart is still goes on

:'(